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Summer Shiny

Right so it's been a long while.

Havent been all that busy. Just lack of motivation.


So what has changed. Im still working at the same job. Been 'promoted'. No pay rise. And i enjoy the work, but hate the new people i work with. But on a nicer note, this has given me the inspiration to try find a new job.
The people on the team are the kind of stuck up, talk about you behind your back, kind of people. Scum.
I will happily have them hate me but wish they would grow a pair and say something to my face, or just leave me alone.
So im looking for other work. I was too comfortable at my job, low pay and tedious, but the people made it worth while. Without them, i have no need to carry on there.

Looking back on last posts it seems i was still struggling with the smoking thing. Well im pleased to say, i have not smoked any 'herb' or anything else for that matter in some months. Im am officially no longer a smoker.
I admit i have done some other higher grade drugs recently, but on a once month occasion and im even planning on stopping that.
The stuff i was on is pretty good though, gives me a huge confidence boost, makes me want to rap again. Shown off some of my old music to the people i was doing it with, and they seemed to enjoy it.

Today is massively hot, too hot to just sit outside unfortunatly. Invented an awesome summer cocktail. Wont give away the recipe on here though, too confident that it is amasing.
Unfortunatly im guna have to go back to work tomorrow. Been skiving off a few days each week for past 3 weeks. But if i can get back to my home tonight and apply for more jobs, hopefully i will be able to escape there shortly.

This summery weather is making me feel pretty good, also making me want to watch Riddick. Been googling the upcoming New Riddick film. But can't find any trailers or new news. Anyone finds any please let me know.

Smoke, anniversary and war!

Good evening blog army.
Aint wrote for time.

Starting to make more work progression, but I'll leave that.
I've not smoked anything (excluding sharing a cigar) for quite a while now. And am starting to become really disappointed when my girlfriend smokes cigarettes. She's cut back but told me that she was having 1 a day and she's started smoking more. Not happy with that.
I don't like being the dickhead who judges others for smoking. But when it's someone I care for, I don't want to see her die of it.
I've obviously smoked before. A few years smoking copious amounts of weed. And although I understand addiction a bit, I was getting angry when I couldn't get any, but giving it up fully isn't that hard. Just to boast.

Had my first year anniversary last saturday. I am fairly strapped for cash. So I took her to london, tourist holiday. We live an hour away from the place but I had never seen big ben, westminster, the palace ect in person before. And she's never been to london town center before at all.
Being both nerds we went to the natural history and science museum. So nerdy in fact that she bounced with excitement when I told her where I was taking her.

Ended up spending more than expected as I forgot to bring picnic so I splashed out on a meal in a west end pub.
Moving on.

I've been reading my Gears of War book a lot recently. Combine that with completing Halo Reach and it's no surprise I'm craving being a soldier. But it would have to be with bad ass battle armour.
If I could take over this country I would defiantly concentrate on creating a massive army. Also get England it's own space program.
Random fact, one of england's most valuable exports is satellites. We rock at space tech, despite lacking having government funded space program.
I think we could solve 2 problems with 1 stone with my next idea. For the world reading this who don't know england, we've got far too many teenage mum's who have had babies because if you do the government gives you a council flat. This has to stop. I thing that the really bad mum's need there kids taken off them. I mean anyone who is too busy clubbing to raise their kid. The fully stupid human. I will explain this some other time. But we should offer them the free council flat in exchange for sterilisation. Stop un intelligent gene spreading.
We take the kids and raise them as soldiers. Create an elite army. Just one idea for the army.
Anyway I'm getting a headache. Laters.
Callum Ball

Tipsy and comic relief

So I've had another pretty standard week of work. With another thursday and friday off so I can work the weekend, hence waking up far too early this morning.
Watched comic relief on friday. Now due to my nigerian neighbour who I hate more than anyone in england, I thought I would never go out my way to donate money to africa. However David Tennent telling me off was more than I could bare. I love Dr Who far too much for that. So we made the call. £10 well spend to feel smug all week.

Spent a nice sunday afternoon after work with terri. We went for a walk round this town. Not had a decent explore since moving in a year and half ago.
Saturday afternoon as well was quiet good. Went to a near by pub to check it out, invited a few mates down. They weren't there long, but was still good afternoon.

Now I'm back to usual shifts. Spent too much over weekend as usual so living cheap. It's me and my girls 1 year anniversary this sat. I need to shift swap with someone for it off. The one weekend I'm actually registered to work and I need it off. Typical.

Anyway I've left the misses watching Dr Who alone to write this, better get back. Laters
Callum Ball

Politics, philosophy and economics

I've pissed my girlfriend off somewhat, made a little comment about the way she was talking. Thought she would be used to me calling her common by now.. It's probably a little harsh but I really get annoyed when the girl I love proves herself to be white trash. Elitist? Maybe. But she seems to be over it for the moment.

I had a good weekend shift at work, as usual we did very little work. Also had a good crowd of people working with me. Had some good long discussions of my political and ethical views.
I told them of my old political party I started in college. The policies have changed a fair bit. I'm not a hippy like I used to be. My views can be akin to that of an anti racist nazi. Sounds bad, and it is. But I would like to clarify that I agree with nothing Hitler did. I think we need to work hard to making a genetically superior human race. And a superior human is intelligent. That is the only real requirement for my uber mankind. If we can stop the ridiculously stupid people breeding then the human race might prosper.
I would like to see the future where everyone is a scientist or scholar, the menial tasks and production of food will be taken care of by robots (obviously I'm on about more than a couple of years time). However a little bit sooner if we can encourage growth of intellect and sterilise the dumb. I'll go into my limits for what a dumb person is some time later. I think I've ranted on long enough about this now.

In other life areas, my money is getting better. I might not even go into overdraft this week! So can start saving soon for house and holiday.
Discussed today my progression at work, it's a slow process, but I told them I really want to be moving up. Requested any training I can get. Determined to get some where in this company before moving on.

Anyway, think my silence is annoying my girl. Laters.
Callum Ball

Slob

It's been another pretty inactive week. But I feel more accomplished than last week. I didn't play minecraft for the entire time.
My house mate Richard has been skiving work again, not happy with him at all. But now we're basically looking for alternatives to move out with. If he's always guna be this unreliable then we can't trust moving in with him, as he's likely to get fired.
Spent some serious time on Fable 3. Which I do consider a day well spent.
I was looking up how to create a mobile signal jammer, but being that they are illegal it proved quiet hard to find a walk through for it. If anyone has any links then please submit them.
I would like to be able to create amazing electronic items, but have to concede that my knowledge in that area is lacking some what.
I really wish I could do school again, but maybe in a private school or university. If I had the motivation and patients and maybe time I could self teach myself these things. Might still have a go. It'll be stacked on my desk under my 'hacking for dummies' book. If your noticing my illegal trends of hobbies it's purely for learning and 'in case' purposes. What if one day James Cameron's Terminator future does come true, good skills to know I figured.

Going to this rock gig of my cousins band tonight. New Social scene here I come. Not that I would like to hang out with mosher types. Not to offend but I've been one a few years back and I can't stand the lot of 'em.
They just annoy me how they switch opinions of bands based on how popular they become and if the common view amongst their type changes to dislike a band. Then they call them selves non conformist. Dick heads. Rant over.

Anyway I'm working the weekend shift again and the weekend after too. Practically like having 4 days off. Also just thought, I have booked off 3 days between bank holiday and royal wedding, which gives me 11 days off in a row. Must think of something productive to do with this time.

Wednesday night I watched the football for the first time in my own house. Too poor for the pub. Saw a goal-less game which we won by aggregate. Tottenham if you haven't guessed.
While eating pancakes. Win.
Anyway, I'll return soon. Laters.
Callum Ball

Weekend shift

Sorry about lack of post, I've just been busy.
I suppose I should start with wednesday. Usual day of work, except that I turned up an hour and 20 minutes late. But I still got out on time to meet a few work mates for a cinema outing. We all missed the first showing, so waiting for the next one at the adjacent bar. A few pints and pool games later we left for the film.
After some frustration with one of our friends phone battery dying, leaving us one buy one get one free code short, we enter to watch 'Paul'. The latest film by the Simon Pegg and Nick Frost. I thought it was excellent. I had my doubts about the concept of a cartoon alien, but it turned out to be incredafunny.

I am working the weekend shift and therefore I get thursday and friday off instead. I like to be productive with me days off, unfortunately I got distracted by a brilliant but at the same time terrible computer game of 'Minecraft'. Possibly the nerdiest thing I could do with my game.
Check it out on youtube. You can play a crappy free version on the website, but it's not a good comparison to the full version.
It's got basic graphics, all based on digging through ans putting up blocks. there is monsters but I've got them turned off. As a child I loved base building and that is essentially what it is for me.
However I woke early to make the most of my day and the ruined that with building a pantheon out of diamond.
I promised myself that I would not play it on the second day off but one again I wasted my day. This is almost definitely the reason why I'm still a no body. The lack of motivation.
At least in the afternoon when my girl had gotten out of her training course I got to head down the pub.
Had a few pints and a pub dinner. They got the order wrong at first but changed it with no arguments. We personally thanked the guy who gave such good service, and as it turned out he was a manager who was starting at that pub shortly, so he really appreciated the feed back. It feels good when you've made someone's day. I always preferred to give presents than receive them. (This is not a metaphor)

Saturday arrives and I'm back to work. I say work but really the weekend shift is such a doss that it barely feels like work. Admittedly this saturday was busier than usual but still nothing compared to any weekday. We ordered pizza and just chilled. Me and my friend Pete have a thing about doing weekend shifts. We've even booked our selves in for one next weekend.

The day went by quickly enough. My girl spend the day at home writing a book. Which I pitched ideas for. It's actually shaping up to be an interesting read. An exciting tragic romance novel. I really think she could be onto something with this. I would love to see her become a famed author. Not just for the obvious money benefits. But too see her be great at something. I would cheekily ride the fame wave to my own greatness.
For a similar reason I bought a lotto ticket that night. Haven't checked it yet.

When I got home from work I cooked her pizza, which I obviously had no interest in having had a large one at lunch. (Suits you sir). So I cooked up some baby corn and maungetoute, how very middle-class. I enjoyed the feeling that I was being healthy and it also was a good meal.
I had also bought bananas and melon from the shops, I'm really trying this healthy thing now.

Now it's sunday morning, I'm up far earlier than I need be for work but I guess I don't require more sleep, so I think I'll play some xbox. Later.
Callum Ball

Moving up at work

Well this must be good. Getting a little bit of training at work. It's not exactly a promotion, but it's a start up that ladder. Not to bore with IT stuff but I'm getting additional privileges on the network. At last recognition for my efforts. Not to boast but I am very good at my job.
Best thing about this training is I don't have to take calls for a while. But I am getting quite bored, not much to learn and most of it is waiting around for one of the telephone monkeys to call us. (Yes i will now be looking down on my colleagues)
I am of course joking...

Ended up at the supermarket again today. Been trying to save cash by not going in everyday. But I didn't buy much. However I now only have £5 in my bank.
Fortunately I'm paid weekly so only a couple of days till next small pay check. I will once again be giving my girlfriend money to pay her bills. I really am quite sick of how bad she is at controlling money. I can't blame her for not earning as it was I who advised her to leave her job. But when the bill is £45 to her bank for going into over draft a couple of times.... Anyway I do need to stop stressing over money. It'll just make me drive away or throw out my girl. And I'm quite aware that I may not be as happy as I am now (or here at all) if it hadn't been for her. We met when we were both emotional wrecks of people.
So I love her almost unconditionally for staying by my side while I drove others away from me with my breakdowns. She even accepts the slight schizophrenic blackouts I used to have. (Just to give proof to all those who don't think cannabis doesn't have a bad side)
 Speaking of which. I haven't smoked since last stated, which was only a few days ago, but I'm not tempted either.

This evening I did manage to have another argument with my girl about nothing. This time it was my annoyance at her childlike objection to vegetables. We clashed about cauliflower. But she agreed to be more open minded with food and ended up quite liking the stew-ish and chicken meal I cooked.
As I'm trying to cook fresh foods at the moment her unwillingness to eat many vegetables is an issue.
I think this would be a good point to point out that by chicken I mean Quarn Chicken style fillets. I am in fact a scummy vegetarian (or this is what my friends call me). I'm not an annoying preachy vegi. They piss me off more than they piss off meat eaters.
I don't eat meat as a personal choice. It's not an animal rights thing, it's more putting corpses in my mouth. Or that's why I am still a vegi. I'm not stupid, if it was starve or eat meat I'd be butchering kittens for food. I've been vegi since aged 5. I'll explain why later.

Now I'm just guna watch Dr Who with my girl, eat some strawberrys and yogurt, then sleep. Later.

Week starts again

First day out the way. However I'm not feeling nearly as shit about my current status in life as last week. Feeling a lot more content.
My job doesn't seem as bad. Got through the whole day quite quickly. One change I'm guna make is not eating chips and drinking pepsi at lunch. I can't take the sugar crash. Far to ADD.

My girl started her IT apprentice course today. So now we are officially the IT crowd. It will be good once we both are earning. Get to move out from our current room in a shared house into our own place. Pretty sick of living next to a moaning obese Nigerian woman, or troll, haven't figured out what it is yet.

I'm still trying to find a way to make my life less mundane. I'm bored of being boring. An example of my boring and jewishness was today my mild obsession of my sainsbury's receipt. Managing to buy a large bag of groceries which is most of my weekly shop for only £15. And this is a reasonable reason to hate myself.

So an idea I've had for a bit of fun is to buy a camcorder and film a knock off Dr Who. Not stealing too much, just the premise. And if I can afford a 3D cam I'll be laughing. I'd watch anything in 3D. So I assume there are enough people out there like me in order to make some cash off it. Plus naturally I'll assume the part of the Dr, or what ever the lead will be. Always wanted to try my hands at acting, was fairly good at school.

After work and my frifty bit of shopping I hit up the pub, to celebrate my girls first day, the typical excuse of an addict.
Then retired home for home made curry.

Too tired to write more now. I'll hit you with some philosophy soon. Later.
Callum Ball

The weekend

Sorry I've not blogged in for a couple of days, been busy.

I Finally returned to work on friday, still skived it off doing menial tasks. But I turned up, that's what counts.
After work I nipped home to grab bags as I still get my parents to do the majority of my laundry. And went for quick joint with Richard.
I had plans to meet some work mates in the nearby town for a drink. As the town is on train route to my parents house anyway. My friend was running late, leaving me sat in what I'm convinced is a gay bar for 20 minutes alone, playing on my phone to try to stay entertained.
This was the less than brilliant start to my night. It was all good and ok when my mate arrived with his friends who I quiet get along with. They are quiet nerdy, even by my standards, but I quiet like nerds. Even if they do occasionally talk above my head about warcraft.

So I stayed for a couple of hours then headed home on train. Whilst trying to arrange plans for that night. Annoyingly I got in a large argument with my girl which used up most my phone battery.
So that when I got into town I had to use a pay phone to call Richard who was in a car somewhere waiting for me. By the way, payphones are ridiculously hard to find these days.

So I get picked up, head to a friends house to smoke up and relax. He had some girls round, and it's times like those I wish I was single. They were not the kind of girls to play hard to get. Having met a couple of them before on a unique night high on methadone in a car park. Nothing happened but they clearly wanted it too. My girl should be pleased by my faith fullness.

Anyway we watched the discusting film of 'Hostel'. I suppose the story aint that but I felt physically ill listening to the screams of the tourcher scenes. I couldn't watch.
To think I used to plan acts such as those for my ex girlfriend. How I have grown up since then.

At about 2 30 am Richard gave me a lift to my girl's nun's house, where she was staying this weekend.

The next day I made the visiting rounds. Saw my mum for an hour or so. Blagging a lift off her in the process. Visited my long term friend 'T', who is heavily pregnant. We got her rats out (actual pet rats, perv) and played some COD.

Finishing the day back at girlfriends house, relaxed with a couple of beers and Dr Who.

Callum Ball

Another skive and planning the future

Was too tired to write last night.
I kinda didn't go into work again yesterday. Spoke to boss, she's given it to me as holiday, so might not be broke next week. Or as broke.

Just can't be fucked with work anymore. Getting bored. I'm not moving up the ranks fast if at all. Despite promises and hints of it. Getting sick of being bottom of ladder. Doing same shit everyday of my life.
But my wonderful girlfriend cheered me up. And with a visit to the pub that evening I had come up with a plan.
I'm not guna let my job get me down, because I've remembered that this job isn't what I want to be doing. And if I get too far up I risk getting comfortable.
I discussed it yesterday while a little tipsy. I want to travel the world a bit and maybe live abroad. It doesn't matter if you have a job which pays well if you don't enjoy it. I only need enough money to get by and save for adventures. Why would I need to buy expensive things that I can't use the 8 hours I'm at work. And I don't need when I'm home as I have my best friend and girl living with me.
So in a year or so I plan to take a couple of weeks to go to paris then train it to amsterdam. This year I'm just hoping for a long weekend in Rome with girl.

Also thought about getting another person in on our plan to move out. So far it's me, girlfriend, richard and one of my girls mates who is awesome. Thinking about another. But needs to be someone as boring as the rest of us. Who are quite happy to spend evenings down pubs not clubs. Or even more likely on the couch with a pizza, Dr Who and some bud. (Yes I am quitting)

Anyway, today I did go to work. And now am going out into town. Only for a bit though, otherwise people might start thinking I'm not antisocial.

Callum Ball

Fuck all wednesdays

Yet another productive day not going to work.
Got to stop making a habit of this.
Woke up too tired, not in the mood and when I found no toilet roll I thought fuck it to working.
I needed the whole day to relax.
Started the day with the intention of going to work a couple of hours late. As said, no toilet paper, no working. Using kitchen roll somehow offends me so.

So I settled down for a chill day with my girlfriend with the refreshing agenda of tv, food and dr who. While my girl found for the first time the joys of 'Fable 2'.
I strangely love the fact that my female companion can get seriously into xbox games while I cook up fancy dinners of tv chef quality.
She is the one who got me into Dr Who. We're part time geeks.
Noted today that I actually quite like the new doctor who, Matt Smith.

I like watching tv when it's already out on dvd, or in this case streamed from the internet. I get addicted to good shows easily and I don't have the patients of a whole week to wait for more.
At least when the wait for season 6 arrives I'll have the back catalogue to work through. Thank you for David Tennent's rewatchability.

Also of note is my sending a complaint to the BBC over the quality of children's tv presenters. I'll show you when I get the reply.

Later on my house mate gets home and I find myself relapseing to bud. But honestly I am quitting, just a random smoke off. I'll keep you posted on how this is going.

Writing this in bed. Time to try snatch sleep before work tomorrow. I promise I'll go.
Callum Ball

Introduction

Good afternoon,

I'll start this Blog with a little bit of background information.

I'm Cal. This isn't my real name. But I'm probably guna stick to this for the present. To add a thin vale of mystery.

I'm 20 years old and am getting close to throwing my ambitions away.

I've studied Music Tech in college with the intention of becoming a top hip hop producer. I also write / perform my own music, or at least I did. I wanted to be the white Dr Dre...but I've now come to terms with my disabling middle class background. Which makes it very hard to be taken seriously when rapping.

My lyrical inspiration was my burning hatred for an ex girlfriend. But I wont go into that now.
Suffice to say her betrayal and my arrest gave me enough material to consider myself a rapper. 
Now that I'm much happier I've not got anything to rap about...fail. Rap career over.

A career in hateful music could have hindered my other chosen destiny anyway. I have always wanted to be a politician. I have no formal qualifications to assist me with this (besides a D in A-level philosophy) but I believe being a natural leader and arrogant cunt qualify me plenty enough.

I say politician but maybe fantastical dictator would be a more fitting title. Oh the ideas i have for this world.


I would love to have either of these lives but instead I'm a level 1 service desk technician at a major IT company.
I shouldn't complain, the money's not bad (not good) for my age and at least i do have a job.

But I've always assumed that I'm destined for greatness. This could be due to my large IQ, brilliant ideas of how to save this country / the world. OR just illusions of grandeur and the inability to distinguish life from reality. 

One day i still hope to achieve this.  This blog in fact might be able to help me influence others to see the world my way.

But this is my life on screen...enjoy.